You see, I have found that I am having a hard time sitting back and just enjoying life. I have found I'm constantly worried~to the point of insomnia in fact. I'm constantly stressed~ to the point where I can't relax. I doubt so many things~ some rightfully so, others as a result of circumstance. I finally had my fill of everything early in November and after a few tantrums and some teary days, I decided enough was enough. I was going to figure out how to enjoy life again. It was in that moment that the word ENJOY became my 2010 word of the year.
I know, it's such a simple word, but it can encompass so many things. Enjoying the process of finding a church (ugh) to enjoying doing laundry (ha!). Enjoying massive amounts of snow even though I can't stand the stuff to enjoying learning how to sew. (wish me luck on that one) The possibilities are endless once you start thinking about it. Hence the reason I picked that word. What's interesting though is once I started realizing just how much there is to enjoy in life, I started to fully understand just how much I wasn't.
So this past weekend I finally broke down and told Marty what I was going to do. Honestly? I figured he'd be a total guy about it all. You know the drill~ giving me a hard time type of thing and asking me why I was even doing such a dumb idea. But instead he shocked the heck out of me when he said it was such a great idea that he wanted to do it too. Seriously, I think I had to pick my jaw up off the floor I was so surprised. But I have to say, I'm excited that he's on board. It'll make it easier to stick to it and get this......it'll make the process more enjoyable! (see what I mean?! it encompasses everything!)
Anyway, long story short, the kids and I were at Best Books in Oakdale this morning and guess what I found? Yep, the book pictured above. Now what's really interesting is we were just there on Saturday and I didn't even see it on the shelf. Today? There were five. Go figure. Not being one to question signs like that I grabbed the book, thanked God for helping me out and enjoyed forking over the cash. Oh! And I even splurged and bought Meghan and myself a couple of butter carmels that we enjoyed eating on our way home as we chatted about how much we enjoy that bookstore. (I'm sure our dentist will enjoy seeing us for a couple of fillings now, too! See? All encompassing!)



